aloha

hello hello...so sydney was pretty fun, would have been better to stay longer.
off that topic, ive been feeling quite shit lately. Dunno why, maybe i might but im not sure.
i always think i know what i want and where im heading but then the smallest thing alters my decision and it sucks balls.

ehhhhhhhhkkkkkkk. (lol)

its still there

so camp is over. I have to admit it was pretty good at times, sometimes i was just too tired and sore i wanted to go home. Overall it was alright though.
So sydney in a couple days, its gonna be woahhh, cause ive never been before. BTW i worked heaps like 2weeks ago and i got paid $203 when i was supposed to be paid $380, thats BULL to the SHIT in my opinion. Because i got taxed! taxed $177. Okay it was half my fault because work didnt have my taxfile number, but whatever thats still gay. I will get it back next july but thats AGES away.

Hrmm what else, i THINK thats all.

laterr

Road to paradise

so ive finished all my exams (finally) and after this week of school everythings gonna be hectic. Wanna know why?
Well..on saturday im gonna go sky diving - like woah. Ive always wanted to go sky diving. Come Sunday im probly gonna go to laserforce then camp for the following week. chillax on the weekend after then go Sydney on the following wednesday for around 5days. I don't feel excited...
I should be, but im not? its so weird. The reality that camp and Sydney is soon doesnt feel real...hrmmmm.
Maybe its a "need to be there" type of thing.

well..thats all for now.
later

Dancing in the moonlight

blogging suddenly got boring.
now that im not angry or emotionally depressed i dont feel like saying anything...weird i know. i guess i take blogging as a place to exert myself through how im feeling.
im not saying i go full emo and say crap like OMG TODAY WAS SOOO GAY...LIKE OMG ==' im not over the top. nor do i say stuff like...he treated me like shit, i hate that mother beepen asshole, blah blah blah (guilty of saying it to a close friend though..harhar)
i know life can suck sometimes, but the longer you hold onto the things that drain your happiness...the longer your going to feel
un-happy? make sense? thats how i see it anyways.

oh but hey, not like im gonna go up to that person the next day and be like heyyy..so we're all good? stuff that.
im only human, so im allowed to be angry. doesnt mean forever though.
just for a while.

so ive actually been pretty happy lately.
feels good.

i'll be sure to secretively fill you in on my next emotional breakdown (Y)

laters G-mun.

Almost there

so this week is my last real week of school for 2009 :O
scary thought. even though it doesnt really feel like the last week, im glad it is!

Block exams are next week
want to know what exams i have? i'll show you anyway (lol)

BCT exam - friday 6th
- block exams start! tuesday november 10th
English poetry exam - tuesday 10th
SPE oral presentation - thursday 12th
Accounting exam - thursday 12th
Maths A exam - friday 13th
Tourism exam - friday 13th
- block exams finish! woo

then hello summer holidays booyah!

today was good...i liked today

if theres a will, theres a way?

so i just wanted to ask something
if you do something publicly, doesnt that mean that eventually people will notice and find out? if your with someone out in the open, won't people see you?
if you do something to someone and hurt them really badly...doesnt that mean that person cant really expect to walk away happy.
if you do something, there are consequences. whether the consequences are good or bad, i guess it depends on what it is that you have done.

it seems like its really easy for people to believe things without knowing the truth. but to take it to an extend where you make their life unbelievably difficult and give them the blame for things they didnt do is just a little unfair.
life is unfair.
i know ive said this so many times but....life sucks balls for me atm.
can't take it anymore

so glad holidays are soon.

i was wrong about life only getting better...

Fly away

"For me, as long as its you saying it,
it doesn't matter how slowly you say it, ill still listen.
If you cant talk over the phone then i'll come and see you,
just like right now.
If you want to walk, no matter how slow it'll be,
ill walk with you.
I...with regards to you.
Like you. Maybe.
I like you maybe...probably"

"Theres so much that i want to tell you.
Theres so much that i want to hear.
But if after learning everything our love breaks.
I'd rather be as i am now."

Random but i like these (Y)

ciao

slower to heal

hate hate hate hairdressers :@!
seriously arent they supposed to listen to what you want them to do? not do what they think suits you...thats what this lady did! oh this will look better, i will cut it like this instead. wtf? did i ask her to cut it like that?

far out

you will be, just fine (8)

so had a halloween party at my house today/night was alright...played alot of table tennis (lol) thumbs up to stefan, jon, clare, duong and danny, their pretty good at table tennis.

anyways so you know how you have one of those days where you just feel like sleeping and staying in bed..that was me today (sept i had this halloween thingo) so yea couldnt exactly do that..oh well

i really hate october...always have, always will.

sometimes you wish you could just escape from your life and travel somewhere that only exists in books and movies or something that you like alot. pretty much feel like that right now.

moving on....tmrw is going to be gay, got maths and accounting to do/study, fun fun.

the upside to life being really shit is that it can only get better right? maybe.

seeya.

the life of teens.

so yeah...i miss the good old days when everyone in my grade were friends with each other. I just realised school life is alot different to about 1 year ago, its filled with lots of hate and anger (lots of relationships too) but i remember when everyone just got along with each other...

wish school could be like that again

So much to say. So much time

yes, i decided to stay home today. Really did not feel like going to school...if there was a day for me to stay home during the week, fridays the day (subjects arent very important) except maths, although im not trying as hard as i should be. might catch up on maths later (Y).
Work is taking its toll on me..
ive worked tuesday (3hrs), wednesday (3hrs), thursday (3.5hrs), friday will be 4hrs and saturday will be 5hrs. that totals to 18.5hrs. holy crap i just realised thats heaps...oh well, im gonna be rich come tuesday (:

so im just wondering what i should do for my birthday (sweet sixteenthhh woo!)....any ideas?

oh also one thing...you know what i really hate
that the new msn shows everybody when youve changed your dp or your pm..its annoying cause it lingers in the "whats new" for a few days and i see the same dp's pop up like 5 times each day..its like yea i get it, they changed their dp...

i wish i could just leave school, win lotto and be rich for the rest of my life..right now if i won 5million dollars id give 3million to my rents, keep 2million and youd never see my face at school again (lol)

anyways i think this blogs getting a tad too long....

oh, one more thing....
Sydney in 5weeks!! cant waittt.

bye

too many words.

yurrpp, so this is my first blog..how exciting, lol not really. Anyways so life is kinda really gay atm, school sucks, work sucks and things just suck.

So things are alot different compared to about 1 and a half months ago. In a way im kinda glad because i know what the outcome turned out to be. On the other hand, going back to about a month ago and just freezing time would make things so much better. But oh well...cant take back time and cant have things both ways.

anyways.....enough sobbing, its abit blehh

so block exams are soon

5 exams and 1 oral presentation on my to-do list (woo...) looks like i have alot of work ahead of me...

thats it for now..

bye